Monday, February 16, 2015

Dyspraxia: The Struggle of An Adult with Dyspraxia

Post Addition: I want to clarify that I celebrate ANY difference including Dyspraxia. It does not make one flawed or wrong or less. However, there are some symptoms that create definite challenges in the current culture we live in especially...and daily life in general. I wanted to shed light on some of those issues to create understanding...NOT to get sympathy nor to disabuse those who have Dyspraxia (including myself) but to provide a sense of community to those who may struggle within their beauty.

ALSO: Since writing about this I have come to see some beauty here too and wrote about it here:


*This is mostly addressing Dyspraxia in an adult. I feel with my son that Dysrpaxia in children can sometimes feel like a completely different issue. He has more communication difficulties and has to depend on adults to help him. While I do suffer from speech slurs, mixing up words and stumbling over my points, I CAN communicate my needs.Writing takes multiple drafts to catch all my mistakes but I DO end up getting my point across with people who understand which really helps being Dyspraxic in my case even if I am severe in many symptoms. I also am quite adapt at looking capable which confuses people.*



Many people and even professionals look at me like I am speaking a foreign language when I bring up "Dyspraxia." Dyspraxia is a disability that mainly affects motor skills but can also bring on a bunch of other difficulties. It can overlap with Executive Functioning issues, however many people can struggle with Executive Functioning yet not have Dyspraxia. For a full list of adult symptoms this is the best website: http://www.dyspraxiafoundation.org.uk/dyspraxia-adults/ 

Dyspraxia can often accompany Autism or Dyslexia but just like there are so many variations of different diagnosis, there are so many ways Dyspraxia can present. Many people who have Autism do NOT have Dyspraxia and many people who have Dyspraxia DO NOT have Autism. 

I can appreciate Autism and the beautiful ways it makes my brain work. I can look at Dyslexia and truly believe it helps me see the world in unique ways. I attribute my amazing capability to multitask in thought and deed plus a host of other great things to ADD and while each of these things (Autism, ADD, Dyspraxia) come with hardships, they each have Neurodiverse traits worth celebrating! (See Autism Labels on the side) Yet, I have not been able to find many positives to living with Dyspraxia besides having an understanding of others who struggle which I already had from my other differences. I do believe it DOES contribute to a differing perspective on life and I celebrate the Dyspraxic's unique wiring as well, but some of the symptoms can be challenging.


I recently checked out the Dyspraxia in Adults checklist to see if any of my symptoms have lessened. To my chagrin they have become worse. I can check off every point of the first 7 headings which is extremely depressing. I have a more severe case compared to the few I know who have Dyspraxia. Sometimes I wonder if it also can come hand in hand with Fibromyalgia? Regardless, both seem a tad extreme to have together.

When I was a child I was the last to be chosen for sports teams, gym class, recess, band class and even some artistic pursuits that required movement. I knew it was not because I was disliked but because I was horrid at any type of performance. Knowing did not take the sting out of best friends overlooking me because they wanted to be the best. I was an obstacle in their achievement and not a friend during competitive moments. As we grew, they picked me more out of friendship or maturity, but sometimes I wished I could opt out to save them the trouble. Teachers were harsh when they worked extra hard yet I showed no improvements. I was branded clumsy. I found it ironic that as a Christian Private School, competitive sports and music were the main values of students and teachers and that moral "fruits of the spirit" were judged according to outward acts and performance. Luckily, I was deemed intelligent in other educational spheres (I could write because that is how I had to adapt to communicate my thoughts) so I was not branded lazy, but they required more than they should have. Many times I would come home to crash on my bed, unable to move because my brain was completely unable to keep my body upright any longer.

I mistakenly thought that I would magically grow out of these issues. I had hoped that one day I would wake up as an adult and have that super power that most adults seemed to have: Capability. Instead of getting better, I became worse. When my kids were born I was expected to take care of more than myself. It's a wonder how I survived the early child rearing years not knowing any of the diagnostic criteria I know now. I was depressed. I never seemed to "get" the cooking and cleaning rules or movements. As time passed I found the judgement or "helpful hints" more and more frustrating. I had tried it all over and over. Practice, in my case, did not make perfect. In some circumstances, practice did help me to achieve minimal results, but it never made me exceptional nor consistent. Sometimes I could tie a shoe, other days I would kick my choice of footwear out of the way in extreme frustration and wear flip flops because ten minutes of attempts did not get me my usual results. Somehow, I made it through, and found the years after age six much easier...and homeschooling helped ease all the issues I would have had to deal with on a daily basis. My kids and I are way healthier in our home, doing what needs to be done, and not conforming to society's expectations. This came with a cost. A cost I would pay over again and do pay from time to time in other's opinions or society's expectations.



The toughest part for me was feeding myself. Most people are expected to make simple meals in adulthood. Even toast was (is) a problem for me and all the decisions that go into purchasing, choosing and prepping food was too much. Over the years I have suffered multiple burns, cuts, dangerous fires, accidentally caused food poisoning and contamination, have had laughable accidents, and broken many appliances, dishes and even have BENT (yes bent!) a knife. I can not understand pressure, too much or too little, and often I forgot to wear oven mitts even if they were plainly in sight. I grated my fingers many times. Not just grazed but took off chunks. One time a knife flopped out of my hands and just missed my kid. In the end, it was safer to stop attempting any sort of meal prep. As, I have mentioned in other posts, I was lucky enough that my husband finally (after years of struggle) took over all meals and grocery shopping. The kids and I eat greek yugort and granola for breakfast every day to keep it manageable. With the help of our therapist, my husband's work schedule is different so that he could have an hour to cook lunch and be home early to cook supper. We are lucky enough to be in a position of work right now to do this but it came with it's own sacrifices and hard work (yet being perceived as lazy or not working hard.) He also helps a lot more than most fathers at home (plus home renos!) because all three of our children have special needs in differing areas - most unseen and not understood by our community- so thus we have had to learn how to live on a lesser wage because his time keeps myself, the kids and himself healthy and sane. We end up giving back more to society by seeming like we do less because we are healthy and whole.

 Luckily, my husband has ADD so he can sort of understand our brains because he is also Neurodiverse. He gets sensory overload because he has it minimally, so he can at least empathize more than most. He is creative and also thinks outside the box. He enjoys cooking on most days. He blasts his podcasts and gets creative. I felt guilty for a long time in regards to the cooking but since I do all the clean up after him, counsel our family, creatively think outside the box and organize the budget/ pay bills and many other difficult tasks that I can still somewhat manage- we have found our balance. It took a lot to get us to this point...especially in a conservative town that values traditional gender roles and the biblical version of the Proverbs 31 woman. To say we have run into sneers, jealousy, bitterness at our personal choices/ arrangement, and annoyance would be an understatement.

 It was embarrassing to go to the In Laws for supper and not be able to offer meal prep help or even sometimes clean up. It had nothing to do with being unwilling to help out but everything to do with being unwilling to hurt myself, others or dishes. What do you do when people define help as purely physical? How do you contribute to a family function when there is that miscommunication? And what happens when you also suffer from social anxiety so thus do not even seem to contribute with wit or glamour? It's easy when I feel comfortable enough with dear friends or family or when I am in my own home where I know the pitfalls and can control my environment. My awkwardness and blunt mixed up phrases bring comfortable laughter or respectful camaraderie with those who truly love. In places where I was often misunderstood, I would typically find myself playing with the kids when they were under toddler age or conveniently caught up in a conversation when it came to help out physically to avoid mishaps. That fact shows how much I LOATHE physical performance because being Autistic, I do not love empty social chit chat either (I do LOVE deep philosophical conversations!) but I would take that over many physical activities.

I am thankful for those who tried to help. Unfortunately, the help never put me too far ahead and I think that fact bothered many. People like to see fruits of their labour when they offer help. The only part of the kitchen I can master, from time to time in my life, is baking. Baking seems different from cooking and if my husband or someone else is around to take the goods out of the oven, I do not need the use of knives.  I have broken two sets of beaters and both times it was loud and scary. Some years I do better at baking and some years I completely lose the skill only to regain it at a future date. I can't predict when I will succeed and when I will fail. To outsiders this is confusing and looks like I am making up excuses but the literature on Dyspraxia explains the fact that some days (even years) we can suddenly perform a skill for awhile until we can not. There are some skills that never will happen, even with practice (cooking and driving outside my limits are mine) and they vary from person to person. With Dyspraxia I have had to find unusual ways of doing normal tasks in order to be safe. 


We do not own any poisonous chemicals because of toxicity and health, but also because I easily mixed up unassociated bottles even while telling my brain what was needed. I have to go out of my way each day to make sure the stairs have nothing on them, that the rugs are completely secured, that my knives in the dishwasher are pointing down in the ONE container they are supposed to be in. Knives are NEVER thrown in the sink because it is a guarantee they will find my hand.

I can not clean up broken dishes. I have to call my husband or worse...my daughter. Because each time I do, I misjudge the pressure or distance of the object and slice open myself. Many people would think the daily habits I have to get through the day are due to OCD but they are just vigilant behaviours to keep me or those around me uninjured and alive.

There are moments I am occupied with something I love, like decorating, and am generally really good at, but if I have had an overwhelming day in any other regard (sleep depravity, social appointments, menstruation, being hungry ect.) suddenly my skills can seem obsolete. My husband heard me mumbling with frustration because I was decorating a mirror and the greenery I was putting around it fell down six times before I got it right. It would have taken him ONE try but typically, if it's something I enjoy, I prefer to work at it till I get it myself. It does bother me though that a simple task can be so frustrating and my body is uncooperative. Unfortunately, there are days where I reach my limit and give up completely. Sometimes giving up is the bravest decision and it takes strength to know our limits and listen to our body.

My son has Autism but he does not have Dyspraxia (he has other additional diagnosis.) He is capable of riding a bike or moving the dishes without breaking one. I look at his ten year old self or my daughter's eleven year old capabilities and sometimes I feel inferior in the physical realm. My youngest is Dyspraxic like me and I understand the frustration of working with someone who can not grasp simple tasks. Yet I know his frustration is double at himself more than anyone could feel towards him. It is continually frustrating to not be able to perform daily activities. Most Dyspraxic adults are highly individual. We like our independence. We crave being able to do what we want to do. It can be absolutely humiliating to ask for help day after day with tasks that can seem so simple. It's also annoying when people hear about our struggles and decide to stay away because they are afraid we will misuse their help.

We will mostly underutilize help because sometimes "help" makes our issues worse. We compromise certain movements or do them in unusual ways which sometimes can require privacy. Help means putting all these issues into the spotlight. My grandmother sometimes comes to randomly help me with my house. While I appreciate the gesture, this also requires ME to clean alongside her normally. In the end, I become more exhausted than doing it in my own unusual way. It also means the next day I will probably have more executive functioning fails than usual. I don't mind if she takes my keys while I am gone for the day and scrubs up my sink to her liking (if that makes her happy) but I do not want her to expect me to keep it up to that standard or for her to measure my cleanliness by my abilities.

This fact also plays into hygiene. Since I have been a teenager the Dentist always tell me that I am either over brushing or under brushing. They show me every time how to apply the right pressure, and I go home and have no idea if I am applying the needed movement for perfect teeth. Showering and shaving can be dangerous. I have a certain routine I must perform to keep injuries to a minimum and often I still end up with lots of cuts and bruises on my legs. I am always full of bruises from daily life.

Each time I go to physiotherapy, my therapist has to point her hands to the direction she wants me to go because it will take me too long to figure out right from left. She also has mentioned multiple times that I am TOO flexible and double jointed but one would never know because my muscles are so weak I can barely perform any actions. This double jointed flexibility causes me to over reach or underestimate a movement. I do not drive beyond my home streets unless it is an emergency and by the end of it I will be a nervous wreck from having to be hyper aware of all the movements that go into driving a car that other people simply go on autopilot for. I am constantly bumping into people, spilling things, and have never been able to ride a bike, throw a ball to someone accurately, or dance. I LOVE the concept of dancing. I used to long to be able to move like a dancer. I will dance in my living room but often it ends in tears from either bruises or awkwardness. The only time I can dance is when my husband takes me in his arms, allows me to step on his toes, and leads me around buffering me from any couch edges or inconvenient walls. Walls look so far away to me but yet are right there... I have walked into our walls many times.

I could give many more examples of daily living fails. If you want to understand someone with severe Dyspraxia, mindfully be aware of each task you do in your day...including breathing and walking...and think of how it must feel to consistently mess it up or have to be aware EVERY day of possible injury. My eldest two children and my husband surpass me in most daily movement activities. They have to make up for my lack of balance, muscle control or ability. This fact is DEVASTATING.

 I will try to achieve what I can. I contribute to the health of our family in many emotional and intellectual ways that it balances out but my ways are more unseen. It is sometimes a vulnerable position to be unseen yet be enough an of an anomaly to draw attention. In an achievement world, it is hard to not be able to show most achievements. In my world daily activities ARE achievements. I get giddy when I actually throw a ball into the net or when I suddenly am able to do a dance move. Those moments are very rare for me and when they happen I am delighted. I can not get disability even though I would not be able to work due to Dyspraxia (and other differences I have and anxieties) because it is not recognized as the extreme disability it can be.

Dyspraxia sometimes feels like the bane of my existence. About twice a year I break down over all of the fails and daily challenges. I sob and beg the powers that be to take Dyspraxia away from me. It seems dramatic but an unseen disability is just as traumatic as a seen one. Especially a disability that can take independence away or that has at least a few moments each day that are hard to cope with. I may have a list of "Can'ts" but I also have a list of spiritual enlightenments and aha moments many people will not master in their lifetime. Each difference comes with some good and bad.

One positive fact of living with severe dyspraxia is not defining myself by achievements. Because if I did, that would mean on most days I am worthless. I do not believe I am worthless, however, I have had moments when my self esteem is incredibly low because my eleven year old knew what to do and how to perform a task better than I did. In the privacy of our home it can sting a little but out in public it looks neglectful. I have had to learn that it is ok to look like what I am not. I have had to believe confidently in my worth and my actions despite how I may come across. I have had to fight for myself, my moments and my safety.

My biggest fear, when the kids were little, was that someone would find out how hard life was for me and would deem me as an unfit parent. I never really talked about my struggles in these areas. Now that the kids are older and I have the power of my therapist, best friend, husband and small community I have built for myself, I know that my kids would not be taken away without a fight of support. I know people see I AM capable. In fact, often people see me as more capable than I actually feel I am. Because I am hyper vigilant they think I am the best babysitter safety wise (probably I am in some cases but it is EXHAUSTING) or a very put together person because of my confidence and ability to mask for short periods (or at least get through things with different strategies.) I do believe in myself strongly and my gifts but that does not negate the struggles.

This story is the one people misunderstand the most. It is the part of my life I am most wary about sharing. The only reason I am putting it out there is because it hurts. Some days it completely lays me bare with gut wrenching grief at some of my limits. I know that perhaps someone else will be hurting too...and maybe they can find this post and know they are not alone. I don't have answers for living with Dyspraxia but I do know that it is important to leave the tasks that can not be done to others, and find alternative ways of doing things that work the best for you personally. It's important to find a way to live outside the box of society yet still contribute in some way! Most of all, I hope that anyone who suffers from severe disability can look at themselves, despite the suffering and see worth. Even if it is not severe Dyspraxia or disability your struggle is STILL legitimate. In anything, there are good days and bad days. Celebrate the good, get through the bad any way you possibly can and give yourself grace. It's easy to feel alone in these invisible struggles (thus my song choice), but you are not alone. I need to remind myself of that fact often, and perhaps this can also be a reminder to you.

*I found an incredible lack of pins on Pinterest for Dyspraxia so I created my own which can be found here with the written quote underneath:https://www.pinterest.com/KAlluraMarie/dyspraxia-and-autoimmune-fibromyalgia-lyme-cfs-end/
I would also recommend my 'Quotes I Believe In' board to inspire you on your life path OR if you are an INFJ/INFP that board also has some encouraging pins:)
https://www.pinterest.com/KAlluraMarie/



Post Edit 2:) A friend sent me this post on Dyspraxia and I thought it was beautiful too:
http://thinkoutsideofthecardboardbox.blogspot.co.uk/2015/02/the-emotional-side-to-dyspraxiadyslexia.html?m=1

10 comments:

S said...

As I was reading this topic on Dyspraxia in adults, I found out that (from the link provided ) apart from one, I have problems with all the other points. That is, I do not have much problems with the "gross motor co-ordination skills" but have many lacking/problems with the other equally important skills like speech,eye movements,perception,etc.etc.

When somebody asks me" Why are you not doing any work/job ( which requires me to take on a leadership role or lots of responsibilities )? " , I cannot explain to them why but it might be because of this dyspraxia or sensory processing disorder.
Apart from painting, decorating and writing ( which requires good hand-eye co-ordination), I seem to be not good at other things like driving ( I can't drive, I have poor sense of direction and anxiety ),keeping things in order, commanding over/leading a large group of people, etc.etc.
Although, I was made a leader in several College/University projects and groups, I won over them with my idealistic personality rather than my sensory/motor skills.
So, what I lacked ( Dyspraxia or sensory processing disorder/SPD)in one field, I made up with my empathy/understanding/compassionate nature.
My mom and aunt always tells me- you have tried your best/you try so much -it shows and so if you lack something physically, it does not matter...your heart can be seen even if your body cannot match...
I was and still am a bit clumsy and un-cordinated...my hubby is fast and extremely well co-ordinated...he gets work done fast and in a very disciplined manner ..but I am his opposite.

Because of lack of motor co-ordination and other skills, If I did too much, I felt overwhelmed and if I did too little, I was filled with anxiety. So, I found out a middle path.
I made a routine and stuck to it. But for every difficult thing I did, I did things which I enjoyed, like writing and painting everyday.I improved with practice. I did things that I hated and things that were dangerous because if I never faced certain things, then my anxiety would escalate. So, I made a routine and started doing things that I would generally avoid. Also because, unlike you , my gross motor co-ordination skills are good. I failed in other areas. Also because there is no family and friends around me to help me in my case and my hubby has a transferable job (where we are transferred to faraway lands, away from friends and family).
But I did not do everything that was expected of me. Just those which are required for basic day to day functioning.

Yes, like in your case, people gave me advice and like you said, "People like to see fruits of their labour when they offer help. But those advice did not work because my sensory processing/brain functioning is different.
I feel that some people are born with a strong body and a strong heart ( both male and female) who are well suited to do "body-oriented /tough work" like weight lifting, cleaning, leading a bunch of unruly people...etc.etc. Whereas, some are born with a soft brain and soft heart ( of both genders again, ) who are well suited to do "mind/soul oriented /delicate work like writing, teaching, painting, inspiring other soft hearts.... I did not use the word "weak" but "soft". Just like I did not use the word "harsh" but "strong". I am also not being gender specific here...also, some people are good at both soft and hard skills...
In a world full of strong people with good motor co-ordination skills, we may feel lost but in our own world, we are able to function just as we should. Also again, this world needs both -the boxer, Muhammad Ali and the poet/playwright, Shakespeare !

Kmarie Audrey said...

Yay for idealism!!! Yea, those who love me- DO love my idealism...and those who really do not get me- hate it...but I love who I am even with the struggles...I think the world is better off with me...and my kids and husband benefit from me in many ways...but there also is the flip side...but you are right...I like how you were not gender specific and used the word soft instead...
I love your boxer and playwright example too!
It is also true what you said, that to the people who matter- your heart will show even if your body betrays your actions... Your routines also sound smart:)
I always enjoy your feedback...

S said...

I was checking this post again and again to see if my comments appeared or not because I had some issues while publishing it and wrote the reply in a hurry so was not sure.. But now I am sure.
Thanks for your feedback. The struggles that we face are sometimes very difficult to explain to others who don't understand...idealism is sometimes seen in poor light , I agree...the way my mom or aunt sees it, others don't see it that way...it is perceived as too flighty, dreamy, impractical by others...so I don't care to explain certain things or issues to people who don't understand...even if they ask me certain questions like why I am not able to do certain tasks...I find it difficult to express so, I prefer to keep silent...when people talk about women who are expert cooks or expert in some areas and expect me to follow them, I know why I can't be like them even if I try my best...I do not even regard this as a weakness or lacking but I feel frustrated sometimes...so earlier, I would try even harder to achieve something...but you know, at the end of the day, we find peace only when we are with people who understand us and cooperate with us ...as I am growing up and as days are passing by, I am in search of a place which calms me down and makes me happy and so I keep doing what I know best rather than trying to be like someone else...I just stopped proving myself to others...it takes a lifetime to understand ourselves and what others wants us to be...in the meantime, we lose so much of ourselves in the process...that is why we should love ourselves with all the limitations ...only we know ourselves the best...
Take care,

Kmarie Audrey said...

S: This is brilliant wisdom:"at the end of the day, we find peace only when we are with people who understand us and cooperate with us ...as I am growing up and as days are passing by, I am in search of a place which calms me down and makes me happy and so I keep doing what I know best rather than trying to be like someone else...I just stopped proving myself to others...it takes a lifetime to understand ourselves and what others wants us to be...in the meantime, we lose so much of ourselves in the process...that is why we should love ourselves with all the limitations ...only we know ourselves the best..."

This is now how I also live...you are so wise in putting it into words. We just ARE. TO the people we have to prove to instead of gather understanding ( because there is a strong difference) we just need to walk away:)

Ashe Skyler said...

I love to say "dyspraxia", it's a fun word. Not so fun to have, but fun to say. Especially when you roll the R.

Even though your level of dyspraxia is a royal pain in the butt (and many other body parts), we thankfully live in a world where physical prowess is not the end all standard. I think people with physical limitations do well in mental ones because they put all that more effort into feeling like they've succeeded. One thing I enjoy about your blogs is your research and presentation. You do very well at it. I think of you in something of an educational light.

It looks to me like you've gone a long way into teaching your kids how to think independently (or at least look at things long and hard and weigh the concept) and still how to work together with other people, like how you all take turns helping each other based on your abilities. One of the greatest gifts a mom can give their kid is to love them and try to care for them, that lays the foundation for a lot of inner strength later on down the road. You may not be "white picket fence" normal, but I think you're still providing a lot of valuable things to your kids. =)

My mom has the same knife rule and she's nowhere near as clumsy as me or you. She found out the hard way that when she does dishes, the knives are to wait their turn on the side until it's time to wash. When she got a dishwasher, they all then went facedown into their little cubby so nobody would get sliced while putting dishes in or unloading the dishwasher. I do the same thing in my house because I know as clumsy as I am that I'll certainly end up getting blood everywhere. (And I have a toddler, really want to be knife safe!) I pass the same advice on whenever I'm in another's kitchen now. Perhaps dyspraxia means you came onto common sense faster than most people normally do?

I haven't evaluated myself, but I'm definitely a little clumsy, butterfingered, and had a few bad run-ins with small items. I once ripped a handle out of a shower wall trying to turn the water on because I thought it was one of those that turned up rather than swiveled side-to-side. I've also bent the handles on one of those sturdy can-openers with the black grips. And it seems that I simply must drop at least 3-4 things in the process of making lunch. And talking, bleh! I get so horribly tongue-tied. People like to say I'm just thinking too fast and trying to say too much at once, but anybody who's ever really heard me trip and stumble hopefully understand otherwise. The confusing part is that I actually have really good balance. Bicycles are a little challenging at slow speeds, but I can do a lot on one foot and other awkward things like that. I'm also decent at old Nintendo platformer games, I have good rhythm.

But being clumsy can be good for comedy. I make a lot of jokes about my butterfingers like how I should live on the floor since that's where everything is going, and often quote one of my favorite sayings of "gravity is pleased with your human sacrifice". It helps me cope, because even my little bit is very frustrating and embarrassing.

Kmarie Audrey said...

Ashe:
Lol- it IS fun to say- it is sort of a pretty word.
Thank you for the compliment on my blogs:) I appreciate that so much!
You make a good point- my kids DO think independently and we all make up for each other's weaknesses and use our strengths...and it gives us each differing gifts- so you are right to point that out! Thank you:)
LOL- white picket fence normal...ha that gave me a laugh- no, no- that i am not...and anyone who knows me would die with laughter or disdain just thinking about me and my non picket ways:)
It's a great knife rule! And I have cut myself helping out at others - I am always so shocked when people do not have those rules:)
I have also done that with the shower! And broken two can openers:) It is hard being tongue tied...I talk fast too but it is also not from my fast speech...I know that in my mind but people seem to still jump to that conclusion too- but its getting words mixed up. Oh my balance is atrocious- could never ride a bike or swim (yuck) That is awesome that you have good rythym! It really helps in a lot of tasks!
You make a good point. My husband is aways laughing WITH me when I can laugh about it and he says I am very entertaining with my word mix ups and my less tragic falls:) I love that saying about gravity:) it is good to have humour in the moments we can...otherwise its too hard:)
Great points!!!
Thank you so much for sharing and contributing your unique voice:)

Quiet Contemplation said...

Wonderful post! I am mildly (I think, but I really have no scale to compare) dyspraxic, which tends to mostly affect my driving skills. It used to be a bigger problem when at school.

Kmarie Audrey said...

Thank you very much! So glad you enjoyed it. Yes you could be mildly...school is so tough in so many ways.

Victoria shaw said...

I think you got spot on with dyspraxia Me I got Dyspraxia I 43 years old feel bit down in the Adult world

Kmarie A. said...

Hi Victoria. Yes, it is probably normal aspect of dyspraxia to feel slightly down in the adult world....esp the current business and achievement focus our world has that is devoted to the physical...luckily we have computers and art to balance that out. I hope you have moments of peace and acceptance.:) Thank you for stopping by.