tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post22085185076220471..comments2024-03-19T09:42:45.476-07:00Comments on The World We Create: Christmas In November; About Hopelessness, Hope, and Choice.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-52168224984891536132016-12-06T16:47:41.192-08:002016-12-06T16:47:41.192-08:00Also Ashe was yours thyroid or parathyroid? Mine i...Also Ashe was yours thyroid or parathyroid? Mine is in the very rare parathyroid. Finding a surgeon is immensely difficult as it DOES have to come out...but I would prefer not to risk a tracheamoty...and with my ferritin levels very risky when not done right.Kmariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12947797743800775255noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-36707244591173142062016-12-03T09:56:19.443-08:002016-12-03T09:56:19.443-08:00Ashe: Ha ha story of my life. Although soon I wont...Ashe: Ha ha story of my life. Although soon I wont have youth going for me... LOl that is funny. You had thyroid issue and a thyroid nodule? How did that go? I am on nothing and thus far do not think I will be given anything at least till all the tests are done which with our health care - waiting is a long time....but thank you lol...I do love Pinterest! (And of course my family goes without saying) Lol my bestie is an INTJ and I rather like the awkward lack of feeling combined with genuine care. Tis sweet:) <br />Kmariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12947797743800775255noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-36049124299600406612016-12-02T08:35:51.670-08:002016-12-02T08:35:51.670-08:00It certainly is curious how a young person can be ...It certainly is curious how a young person can be dragged down so horribly. But it happens. Nightmares are interesting too. If you're unable to turn into one of those lucid dreamers, I hope you'll always be able to force yourself awake to get out of it when they come. Or comically wake yourself up. I swatted myself awake once dealing with imagined arachnids and have been giggling about it since. I wish you luck with the thyroid thing too. Been there, done that, didn't like it. Maybe yours will pull itself around too, or at least you'll be given the right dosage to make everything feel normal again. But don't you go dyin' on us any time soon. Not only do them young'uns need their mammy and the Mister needs his Missus, some of us quite enjoy the purty things you repin on Pinterest. :P<br />(And so the emotionally challenged INTJ sends awkward heartfelt sympathies.)Ashehttp://www.raven-wing.net/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-23033153742037258452016-12-01T09:23:53.739-08:002016-12-01T09:23:53.739-08:00S: I am both sorry and relieved you can relate. I ...S: I am both sorry and relieved you can relate. I always love your insights. I think with various kinds of physical decay or things that don't work how they are supposed to- there is legitimate grieving. Waiting for tests to rule out dangerous things also has a form of letting go and a different perspective on life. Chronic illness has given that to me for years but having ONE more thing to add to the complexity of my body almost threw me over. I am so so so so so tired. But you understand that. I have a lot of fight in me usually but lately...Lately...it takes a lot... Yet I am still grateful and aware.<br />Yes when you are overwhelmed with pain and exhaustion sometimes all you can do is deal. But the recovery time is both the worst and the moment when things often change. Like coming out of surgery. The surgery is scary and life threatening but for the person the hard part comes after...the days of pain, possible complications, being out of it, side effects, and dealing with pain....but months later- usually the person ( if it was a necessary procedure) is glad to have done it...( hopefully! ...generally...I can't think about it too much:) Anyway, thank you for your story. It is hopeful. From what I hear many other thyroid patients said the same thing- like they are on deaths door...also anaemic patients simply because the body is not keeping up and is very mixed up. Your story with your thyroid is another one to add to mine.:) <br />Light is here- I see it, but then it fades behind darkness waiting...and I think I am ok with it but yes, it would be nice to see the warmth a bit more regularly.<br />Thanks love<br />KKmariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12947797743800775255noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-10258550656876019362016-12-01T02:17:35.158-08:002016-12-01T02:17:35.158-08:00Feeling very emotional after reading this. I can r...Feeling very emotional after reading this. I can relate to your journey so much. Once I had also lost all my hope just like you. Something inside me was dying, each day. But in some moments, in a fraction of a second or a minute, I also felt some hope within me. As something was dying within me and withering away, something else was also growing, something unknown ...inside of me...First this unknown and unexplainable glimmer of hope stayed for a few minutes...then it went away for many days...then it returned again...it lasted longer next time....it went away again only to come back...this continued for many days.<br />When we go through a major life crisis...we are transformed without our knowledge. Transformation is taking place. Now it looks hard and hopeless but after some months, everything will look up...sometimes, we go through some unknown and mysterious processes of life, what is there at the end of the tunnel is difficult to grasp now...the mind is playing tricks and the body is giving away...<br />But at the end of the tunnel, there is something waiting for us...a major life lesson or a transformation of our persona or just, gratefulness....<br />I agree with you that sorrows and discomforts makes us more aware and more happy when we come to see happiness at last...it enables us to love life more...life does not make sense when difficulties are going on but later it makes us appreciate life even more...<br />When I was in pain , I could not see anything or feel anything properly. I could not accept my pain gracefully because my mind and body was under medical/chemical influence induced by my ill health and medicines. But when I was recovering, I could feel everything so vividly...it took me months/years to fully feel alive... but I would say pain healed me and transformed me...taught me what is more important and what is not...<br />I am sure, you will get better each day in your journey...there is so much to absorb, learn,grow and outgrow....but at the end of it all, you will see light. <br /><br />Take care,<br />S Shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17363854783134050594noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-9146823579649532942016-11-30T21:11:33.770-08:002016-11-30T21:11:33.770-08:00Amy: Thank you. I am glad we met on a similar spac...Amy: Thank you. I am glad we met on a similar space years ago as you are an integral part of my life. these words of affirmation mean a lot and your acknowledgement of how you see us. Thank you for sending me all those beautiful attributes. Xo <br /><br />C: Well that is flattering to evoke emotion in a piece and have it resonate. Always a boon for a writer I think and I deeply value your feedback in that regard. I did tear up once writing it too so it WAS written with emotion. Im sorry you have been having bad days. Please feel free to call or email if you would like to discuss more. xo. Love u 2.Kmariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12947797743800775255noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-66854605690337655822016-11-30T16:15:24.064-08:002016-11-30T16:15:24.064-08:00This made me cry. Not sure why. I guess I can alwa...This made me cry. Not sure why. I guess I can always relate. Also having a bad couple days myself so that adds to it. Love u. -CAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2971383103866151443.post-78266216033166142912016-11-30T15:40:22.612-08:002016-11-30T15:40:22.612-08:00Reading this and am smiling and tearing up. I love...Reading this and am smiling and tearing up. I love your family and love that you love so authentically to your heart's leading.On the flip side I am sad that you feel so sick everyday and feel like you could die any day. Ugh. I wish I souls help and change that fro you K! Sending you so much love, grace, light and hope. xoxoxoxooxoAmynoreply@blogger.com